mondays are great days to experience inertia to work.

especially when the boss isn’t around and the mice are out to play.

well. this rat’s gonna play a wee bit before losing her soul at work.

i’ve been wanting to write this down for some time. i don’t think the person this is mostly intended for reads this blog anymore, but it’s just something i wanted to tell her, but couldn’t. but anyway, it’s something that i’ve struggled with internally for a bit, not just with regard to her, but everyone else in general.

friends are transient, you’ll be close to someone for a while and then drift apart, that’s not my modus operandi, especially when i regard someone as a close friend. whilst i understand that life is very full, with work, family and love, i don’t understand the lack of effort placed in meeting up. i don’t expect a friend to meet me very often or give up everything on the spot when i ask to meet, but to schedule a date later would be nice. To follow up because you can’t confirm now. I mean sure, keep in touch is a placeholder text, but i don’t expect placeholder texts from someone close.

what i’m trying to say is that i’ve given up asking this person out because for a year, i’ve been rejected by excuses that work is very tiring. yes, i’m not from your line of work, so i don’t understand how tiring it gets, but seriously what abt the holiday periods? frankly speaking, it’s no longer a matter of you’re too busy to meet, i think it’s a matter of you can’t be bothered to meet.

so. i give up. there’s is absolutely no point anymore. and in so saying, i’ve also taken this stand back approach to many friends, where applicable. if i’ve been asking you out a couple of times, and you’ve been too busy to go out, then the next step’s yours.

on the current guy on my mind. i’m not too sure if i’m stubbornly insisting there’s something when there’s not. so i’m gonna leave it as it is until the signs are clearer. or fate intervenes by clearing the feelings up or sending someone else. but yup, he’s been the guy on my mind for quite some time, considering i generally figure things out really fast. hmpf.

I have a new lappie! the lappie died the moment i stopped seeing the ex, so it’s somewhat more than a year! i’m pleased with the new lappie! it is gorgeous (to me). it’s a lenovo=ibm so i love it. i’ve always had something for quaint ugly things. yayyyyy.