the beautiful disaster that was you

It’s been exactly a year since I officially broke up.

17 Feb 2008 was the day he said let’s take a month’s break.

21 June 2008 was the day I said, I’ve had enough of this month’s break.

I keep remembering it to be 5 months but it’s only been 4 months, so I s’ppose it wasn’t that bad.

I’ve always had an obsession for details so yes, I remember everything. If I dug out my photos, I’d probably be able to give you the clothes that I wore. I actually remember what Jasper wore, an orange oversized t-shirt with rolled up sleeves. Ling wore a funky hat, I think.

Let’s see what I did on the 21 June 2008. I woke up early in the morning to go to Cityhall for circle painting with Jasper. We then went to Relish to meet Simin and had lunch. As Jasper and I shopped at Cold Storage, I managed to call him, we argued and broke up over the phone. I then impulse bought 2 cartons worth of my favourite mandarin orange green tea and went home to drop it off and shower before heading down to Jasper’s to have dinner with Ian as well. I don’t know what cause this serves, to recount my day then. Has my inner OCD finally surfaced? Is this meant to be carthatic? I honestly don’t know.

What’s significant abt the year mark? Other than highlighting the fact that I’m not attractive enough to snag a guy in this year, haha, I think what’s important is that I’m very near the half relationship mark. A friend once told me, you generally take about half the time you were in a relationship to recover from it. Well depending on the date to take as the end of my relationship date, it could either be 23 more days, or 3 mths and 2 days more. The date to start always begins at the latter because that’s when I was forced to move on. I’m never a believer in this half relationship recovery period thing, if it happens, it happens. But I suppose it’s something that’s giving me some logical statistics to hold on to. So please, let this be over soon. Let my new man come soon! haha. I need to hit my pre-planned timeline yah. haha. But what’s important is, I just want to love again.